Visiting again the Sacred place

Went out to snap some photos of mushrooms. The path lead me eventually to my Sacred place, where I had an instant transcendental experience even without the use of any psychoactive substance. And then I realized that, it was meant for me to be there, in order to ask the help of the spirit of my Tree Guides, for the healing of my father.

Following is the recording from the place.

The tree with the female element.
The subtle healer.

The teeny-tiny insect. I didn't remove it,
I left it where it was.

photos: Grigoris Deoudis

Cannabis leaves tea, day 1

From the same batch of leaves of this period, I decided perhaps it was better to drink the tea made from the leaves.

Quantity: 2.080 liters
Began drinking on: 15:00 continue drinking to 16:30
16:45 Slight increase of the mood
17:15 increase of dizziness and shifting of consciousness to the psychoactive states.
Most symptoms reduced around 23:00

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Transcript and possibly notes not mentioned on video:

"So, it is.. 11th July. It is 17:23

and I have drunk tea from the cannabis leaves

from 15 o'clock to 16:30

and..

after a slight increase of the mood

at 16:45, then half hour later

the psychedelic state started to kick in

and that means,

the changing of consciousness..

existing in a different..

angle of perception..

and then two minutes earlier, before starting this
recording, I felt a presence of entities..

and I am not in my house now, I am somewhere else,
that I have never come again before.

and I felt the presence of entities..
and they were close to me..

I couldn't see.. anything. I was just feeling their presence,
their energy.

And they were close to me, not so close, they were..
5-6 meters away from me.

But.. but I knew I felt that..

They were..

They were there.

Ok, now.. Let's pause.

Shhhh!... This is the quite room..

Shhhh!... This is the quite room.

This is the quite room.

This is the only place that you can..

..rest your self.

..to feel.. yourself.

To feel the energy.

Flowing... ~

like the ebb and the tide..

Flowing and changing, everything.

Every motion.. is every death and born.. of the soul.

..of each molecule.

Energy paths ~ Embracing the flower inside

I happened to find some cannabis leaves from a third person. So, I ingested raw cannabis leaves, 4 days after they have been cut, fermented in their natural fermentation.

Quantity: 30gr
Ingestion began on: 10:55
11:30 Slight numb feeling
11:45 Slight increase of joy and slight sense of thirst; also, I have the feeling that my body is being calibrated inside, first off at the digestive section
12:10 Increase of joy and sensation of thirst
12:30 Increase of laughter and sensation of thirst
Most symptomps reduced around 22:00

part 1

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Transcript and notes not mentioned on video:

"So.. so.. it is now twelve twenty three. And I am adding to my notes, my written notes, that there was also an..

..an increase in thirst, in the sensation of thirst. And I was listening to two people from Africa.. talking here..

and.. and they were making some.. sounds, like "Aaaaah!".. "Eehhhhh!", when they were talking;

and that led me to think, ehm.. and that led me to think that.. those people that are closer..

..that their roots are closer to the.. not so modern human beings that are living inside cities;

..so, those people.. ehmm.. and since they are closer to their roots, to their natural roots with nature;

ehm.. they are closer to the other beings as well. And so, their sounds such as these are mimicking

..the sounds of animals.

Ok.. so there are people here and I don't want to.. to.. Ok, someone is waiting there for me, I have to close now

photo on location

I have ehm.. it is now twelve thirty-six and I had also a slight increase in the sense of thirst..

and a slight increase in the laughter.. and I was drinking water and I was feeling like I was drinking liquid crystals!..

..you know minerals, crystals. Ooh! it was so unique, like I was sensing that I was drinking also the Prana of the water.

It was.. ehm.. so smooth and gentle. Ok, I have to close now, because I am also working now...

..for one or one and a half hour more. Ok..

Ehm.. twelve forty and I was sensing, I AM sensing now, how the.. ehm.. intake of the cannabis leaves, have..

..have regulated and they how they regulate my metabolism. And my sense of hunger, I.. am feeling more balanced now

..in the sense of the whole digestion system.

And I am.. sensing this, this is the amazing thing. I am sensing this internally.

Like, like I am sensing, the easiest way to describe this, is that I am sensing..

..the energy at that point.. and at that area..

Energy paths ~ Glimpses of transcendent states

..multicolored flower garlands ~

"There are multiple.. qualities of each and every thing. There are multiple qualities of intelligence. There are multiple qualities of sensing and of the way of sensing things. There are multiple qualities of understanding.. and knowing.. There are, layers.. multiple qualitative layers of wisdom.
[...]

All those people, that we call them "crazy", they are living in the non-linear world. And they are grasping all these different qualities. That most of the "normal" people miss, in every moment.. It's like there is a scenery, with a lake and two trees and, from specific points of view, one can miss the lake or one of the trees, or both of the trees, or everything. Everything is a perspective of view, of things. And the "normal" people that are working every day, in all this "normality", of this society, they are so much trapped, in their own mind. They live inside a prison of their own mind, because they are.. taught.. to do things in a specific order.. Not to.. sidetrack from any context that is not controlled.
It is funny how these kinds of thoughts appear mostly in the weekends. It is funny. I didn't have any of those thoughts, well, most of the time, during the weekdays. But, in the weekend.. there is a different, perplexing and.. weaving of realities.. of Real-It-Is.. And I can have a grasp of a different quality, a different way of seeing things.
[...]

..shattered Real-It-Is,
beyond linear timespace ~

But, it is because in the weekends I have more time to meditate. And.. therefore.. I can deepen my connection with/to everything.. I can tap-in, in the energy patterns and absorb their traces of energy.. That is why I need more time.. I need more time every day, all of the day.. so I can deepen this.. kind of connection even more.
And it is so beautiful..
Without.. having taken any substance, I am able to feel that colorful patterned view of the reality around me. It is so unique.. That is why meditation.. Lengthy, hourly meditations, are so much important, for our spiritual development.. Because we can deepen inside every aspect and see it with different eyes.. and feel it with different senses... Ooh, I am.. I am mesmerized of this.. of this way of viewing things.. It is mesmerizing. It's an inebriation without taking any substance. It's beautiful.. I can see now with my mind's eye, flowers.. moving in a.. spiraling way.. forming.. garlands, of time and space.. garlands.. multicolored garlands, with energy traces.. carrying beauty.. and meaning, a deep meaning. Ooh.. tomorrow I have my final Nada/Nidra yoga workshop for this year[actually for that season], but I wish I had time to go to nature.. Nature is so important, it's a medicine."

Energy paths ~ The colorful language of energy

Installation artwork at the Wajid Meditation Center,
digitally edited by me

After a dream I had (which I can't recall) I woke and started recording. Still lying on my bed with my mouth on the pillow, the words some times barely sound (and sound funny:) as you will notice. So, a couple sections corrected afterwards during the transcription below, therefore it is advised to read the text as well for the revised version.

6:19 (June 10) in the morning. Each moment I choose to be the best version of myself. Of what I have to be. Differing in such, from the contractual psychological pattern, that I have.. used to wear.. under my skin and identify it with, who I am. But, that second 'I am' is not myself, is not me, it's a psychological pattern that I have -used to- become... in the process of this life. But each moment I can choose to be the best of me, the best of who I have to give. And that best of me.. is a gem, is a precious stone, that can resonate in a different quality. It's like looking yourself in the mirror of time, of now. You are the best possible self you are, the best possible you have to give.

That old psychological pattern of you is all the accumulated thoughts and memories and ideas.. and belief systems.. and what others, believe of you. Somehow for some reason, you have used to, wear that self, under the skin. But you can choose to stop identifying yourself with that, it is just.. a small or rather huge shift in your perception.. but it can be possible.. to be done. Because you have become, what you are thinking now, of you. And of everything else around you. You, have chosen.. to carry along with you, all those small and big pockets of all the accumulated knowledge and memories. All that is so heavy, for you.. you can't go far carrying all that stuff, all that baggage. In fact, that, is not you. You have to be-free from your own self. You have to see yourself with new eyes. You have to see, yourself, in the deepest possible reflection of now.. and identify with a new self, a new self that is.. emerging, from.. within. And that new self is radiant.. is a radiant energetic being, of Light.. and kindness. Because you, reflect yourself from the source of who you are and that source is.. deriving from the True Source. Each moment that you choose to become that best part of you, then each moment.. you are true to your own self.. you are a shining diamond, in the mud, of time and space. I have woke up from a dream.. and I have vibrated into that essence of now.. And that essence, of now.. is both me and is not.. Because I am not me.. I am, reflecting the source. I am reflecting the source.. of all things possible to be done, and to be expressed.. in a formless, radiant wave of possibilities. Therefore, I have the freedom, to choose to become whatever I need, not whatever I want. There is a difference between the 'need' and 'want'. Because, what I want is.. is the outcome of that small, used (common) self. But, what I need, comes from the inner deeper core of my own self, of my true self. Ooh! I like that.. radiant energy expression, because I can feel it vibrating me inside me, and I and my words have become one.. It is pure energy, vibrating, it resonates inside me and I resonate into the energy of words. It is the only time that words have a meaning (value).. It is the only time that they (words) reflect the energetic now, the energetic presence of raw matter.
It is raining now outside and it will wash out all the old patterns, all the old memories will fade away.. Because they are so heavy.. I need to become, you need to become the best possible, self, you have to be.

6:48 in the morning. I had a short (well, not so short actually) meditation. The new sense of being, of choosing to be in the presence.. is by expressing all those colorful aspects.. of the transformative energy of who you are. And that is a new way to.. become.. everything. Yesterday I.. experienced in my meditation the various colors of energy and I.. referred to them as the.. words.. in the language of energy. And we are just tapping in.. learning new words, in that new language.. All these colorful aspects.. of the energy-language.. are in the flow ~.. and when we become to flow ~ with them.. we can transform ourselves, into something "impossible". We transform from possible to "impossible". Because there's nothing such as impossible. It's just something that we have not yet dreamed off to be. When we are dreaming of something.. we can give breath into it, and bring it into action, in the presence, in the now. But first, we have to dream off.. those new energies.. those colorful patterns that are formless.. they don't have any form, therefore they are not heavy, they are pure, raw energy.. and it is flowing ~.. in colors.. it is flowing ~.. in colors.. It is consciousness that it is not of ours.. We are riding that wave, of hyper-consciousness.. We are becoming that raw wave, colorful.. All those colors blending together.. Ooh! it's a majestic feeling!.. it's ecstatic.. to become all those colorful energy-waves.. in the flow ~.. in the flow ~.. of now. And all these, are carrying higher information.. from the subtler realms. I don't have t.. to do, anything special right now in this moment, I just have to be.. To be, so rich and colorful and pure, as this energy.. speaks to me.. Ooh! that flow!.. 
...
A small gap, in time and space. That, was, a valuable moment of silence. Because when I am not here, I am there.. And when I am there, I am everywhere. The word 'there' goes to the presence I choose to be. In the meditative state we are everywhere, we are not here, we are there, in the timeless time, and space. And therefore, when we are there, we have all the capabilities of.. creating our lives.. molding it, in a formless.. expression.. of colorful.. syllables.. and words, that are not heavy.. they are pure, raw, energy.. Colorful.. in the flow ~.. Hyper-pragmatic, multi-creating.. tiny bits of me.. tiny moments are being created, right now.. Moments to be.. to choose to be.. and to become.. everything I am dreaming off.. because when I am dreaming of something.. I am weaving it.. into.. the living reality, of the presence.

Energy paths ~ The energy is a language

I have just finished my hourly meditation.. and at some point I was.. I could sense the energy as streams.. various streams of energy. I was able to sense them with colors.. with various different colors. It was.. it is like the energy has its own language.. And I have just learned a few words.. I have just learned to speak and understand only a few words from this, so to speak, energy-language or from the language of energy. I feel I have barely touched the surface. It was.. there were.. swirls of energy streams.. from here and there in various colors. In purple.. dark purple and dark blue.. Ooh it was unique and amazing.. to feel them. I didn't know what was all about, I was only feeling that, that energy was/had a language, had some forms. It was moving in various forms.. in contexts without a context.. Simply a flow ~ a flow ~ a magical flow of energy.. and colors. I can't sense what was all about, what kind of energy.. or furthermore.. what that reflected inside me but.. it was strange and.. flows ~.. of energy. Penny, I'm just speaking now.. I love you too, I love you three. Yes, I love you too. I don't feel I have anything else to say for the moment, only what is.. I do not wish to chatter.. Only what is important to be shared.

Later on, I took Penny and we went to the Elsenburger park. A vast area of green nature and wide canals. We stayed there many hours, I absorbed the beautiful sunny moments in silence, in constructive silence.

Energy paths ~ Meditation Island

I found myself again in the meditation island, I dug out my crystals from the cupboard and remained flowing on an energy path with the aid of my Malachite/Chrysocolla crystal and incense. Bellow you can find the transcription from the audio recording.




The essence is energy and the energy is the essence. Riding the wave of the highest possible energy, is the ultimate Logos. No human words can ever reach that level of awareness. Because in that level of awareness, lies a qualitative energy so vast and reach.. that is beyond any level of comprehension through the mind. The highest possible energy reached, is so pure and so powerful, that can transform someone, slowly, gradually. Letting that energy transform you and change you, is something more powerful than any written text. Because energy is vibration.

~❖~

I have planted feathers on the ground, (photo) and upon their feather blades I can concentrate and let my spirit fly, along the subtle realms of the mind. These words are the product of distillation under very old trees, carrying wisdom. I saw a feather on the leaves of a plant (photo) and the feather showed me the way forward.

Gemstones are so gentle, everything they have to give.. Immediate knowledge speaking to the subtle realms. They are so subtle.. Crystalline knowledge, that grew there, beneath the ground for thousands of years.

Clearing my Malachite/Chrysocolla crystal
by smudging it with the incense

Ooh, these rivers keep secrets of all the whispers of the forest and they glow them back to the night-sky. And they glow them back to be absorbed.

The distilled energy-field is speaking to me.. In a language that I can comprehend. Because it is vibrating me. It vibrates my essence. Slowly becoming.. that energy.

[I had about a quarter of deep meditation (I can now more easily deepen in my meditation state within 5-10 minutes as I start, I have personally developed a meditation technique which perhaps aids to that). Later I “came back” to the default state of consciousness, to transmit.]

Within seconds I was flowing energetically.. with my astral body, traveling among.. distant space tribes.. and the crystal cities, I was flowing, I spent some time there.. And then I landed down. And it came to me that.. Also time grows up.. perpetually.. never stops growing. And it grows pockets of time. Time has an endless array of forked paths.. That one can enter and travel there.. theeerrr.. the noise Nnzsznn.. [there was a car with a loud noise passing by, distracting me, so I mimicked the noise to try and remain to my own energy field].. The noise of the city is a such a pollution for the mind. I am staying there.. Refusing to come back.. In your world.. you primitive beings.. here with all that noise.. and pollution. You are disrupting my field.

[meditating interval that lasted about a quarter]

The purity is among the animals and the foliage of the leaves in the forest. Oh! I touched the nettle.. and it burned my skin.. But it was healing for my spirit.

[meditating interval that lasted about a quarter]

So, I sat for a while with them again. Gathered in that circle (referring to the same group of entities at a previous post).. But the signal was weak.. There is too much distraction this Sun-Day.. From all those noises.. It’s such a distraction. I don’t have much energy to stay there. All those daily activities of the people are so.. vastly away.. from their spiritual essence.. From their spiritual bodies. They are so immature. Most of them are going to die as such. Nothing to blame, it’s just (they are) like that. Everyone continues his/her path. The choice is in your own embrace.. Embrace it. The vast spiritual realms.. are talking to you.. If you just dive, in those realms. Listen to the bird now.. It sings the beauty of the forest.. it sings the beauty of the day.. The beauty.. That gathers where there is nature, where there is natural essence (Prana or Qi or Ether) the healing essence of the Earth. There, are the medicines to be found.. and to heal one’s soul. Because everything that naturally exists on Earth.. came from beyond this Earth.. it’s so to speak, “extra-terrestrial”.. That is why it has such an immense field of energy!.. Such an immense field of energy!.. [12 church bells in the background]

~❖~

I just sit.. close to the river in the forest and I am filled in, with such a Divine energy!.. That immense energy.. fills every bit of my essence!.. and simultaneously it uplifts it to other realms.. Such a tremendous (intense) experience!.. Nothing on this materialistic matrix has any meaning at all.. Nothing! Nothing!.. It is.. when one goes farther.. into that Divine Realm.. it is so ecstatic bliss!.. it is ecstatic bliss!.. that words cannot even touch the surface of it.. It’s an ecstatic bliss.. That is why when I.. I sensed the immense energy of death (sensed the energy on the other side of the veil).. at some point I wanted to stay there (to remain at that realm).. Because it was so immensely beautiful!.. It was taking away all of my essence!.. And for some reason I.. stayed here.. But it makes no difference, to me.. Because death and life are two sides of the same coin. Life is never-ending. Death is life in advanced and higher level of existence. But.. I am here on this Earth for some reason. And I.. stayed here for some reason. But again.. it doesn't matter to me!.. It is completely irrelevant.. When one can seize from that side of events.. When one is able to see from that side.. everything here on earth is so.. vastly.. irrelevant. Irrelevant. Completely irrelevant. Every materialistic ambition, everything that exists on earth, that is human made, has no meaning at all!.. Those colorful papers we call money.. This pollutes me so much even when I talk about that. It makes me stay (spending energy) thinking about the materialistic matrix. Oh.. let me purify this moment.. for a while.. And flow again back there.. To see things from.. the bigger picture. It’s a perspective of perspectives.. Like a multilayered mirror.. Like a multilayered energetic mirror that mirrors back the Whole, to me.. How can I comprehend the Whole.. When I am so little? [that motorbike sound in the background, distracted me].
Yes.. you are throttling that motorbike.. because there are so many.. blocked patterns inside you.. And now you have the illusion that you are freeing it.. by riding that motorbike.. and speeding up.. But nothing on this earth can change what lies inside you.. unless you choose and heal those blocked patterns.. from the childhood traumas.. Anyway.. I lost myself again.. into this materialistic matrix. But every voice.. every sound, calls.. for an inner approach of the Divine. And this can be found in nature.. In the green embrace of nature.. In the healing green embrace of nature.

Energy has spoken to me. And I gave it completely. I sense that, that was it for now, because I am so tired.. From all that wandering, from all that energetic flow of wandering.. to the other.. And to the extra-sensible.

Never seek ending.. Never cease finding, because there are always things to be found.. And that is.. the purpose on this Earth, on this path.. On this tiny path (step) of the evolution of the soul.. A small glimpse of the eternal wheel of time.. Which is timeless.. We divide the timeless.. into a notion that we can comprehend.. and we name it time.. But time is a small portion of the timeless. We can only comprehend according.. to our (given) plan.. according to our capable energy of storing that bit of information. It’s not so easy to me to transfer these words in English right now, this moment, this alive moment of communication with the spirit. But I think it’s enough.

When I was leaving the place, I saw a long cloud in the shape of a feather. And when I snapped the photo two geese appeared in the frame.. (photo ^, click to enlarge)